Friday, February 10, 2012 9:34 AM
GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!!
This week the letter had to be sent later in the week because we had special training on our usual p-day. Things have been off and on this week because of the cold, I feel good, but my ankle doesn't. It swells up and gets hard as a rock!! But, the other day, Wednesday, we put this clay stuff on it to take the swelling down, and I woke up swollen!! I guess the clay activiates all the toxins in your body and so i felt like I got hit by a truck!! We cancelled all our appointments, which took me most of the day to not feel guilty about doing..because I was really wanting some lessons that day...but in the end it was a good thing for my companion. She did a LOT of learning and growing while I slept...so for her, the day was not a total waste. The Lord's work is always done, even if we don't realize in what ways.
I recieved the death call on Tuesday...am I staying 11 or 12 transfers? Man, it was just a reality shock for me because they are already needing to order my plane ticket and arrangements taken care of. I can't believe how fast things are going. And the frustrations that I have been having with my health and with my ankle, well, come to find out...I know that was apart of the Lord's plan too. It gave me time to rewind and really put my thoughts in order. I felt so tranquil during these past few days and just coming to realize what I really want in my life. I think that has been the BIGGEST amount of growth that I have made and it has really put things in order for me. I am very grateful for that.
Liz still isn't baptized and we have had some trouble getting ahold of Christele. But I know we'll make progress with both and everything will be okay. Yesterday's appointments were with Liz and also her mom later that night...but everytime I prayed about going out, it didn't feel right. by the end of the night I felt fine, so I was frustrated why I couldn't have gone out during the day. But the feeling I got was that LIZ needed to step up and bear her testimony to her mother...to work on gaining a relationship with her and just telling her mom how important the gospel is in her life. I don't know if she did it, because we asked her to when we had to cancel the appointment...but I am ready to get back out there and get the work rolling again.
That has been one of the challenges for me...learning to listen to the Spirit. I have...trouble...we could say, when it comes to knowing what I want and what the Lord wants. I second guess myself...like right now, I keep saying "I should have gone out yesterday" but I really just didn't feel good...I ended up sleeping the whole day even though by the night I felt much better. Is that okay? I keep saying "I can't let this happen again" but my ankle is also issues too! Members tell me not to go outside because it's so cold and it really does bad things for my ankle...and I can't really get on busses without people kicking me or stepping on my foot...*sigh* I just have to accept the decision and move forward. Everyone knows it's been in bad shape, and that normally, I would NOT just want to rest and eat nothing and stay in bed...There has been a big flu going around and my companion thought I was starting the symptoms...and now I realize, reading back over...could I have been justifying my decision to reassure myself? Gaaaghh...and then I think and realize, I felt what i felt, to stay inside...and I have to remember that my decisions also affect my companion...and for her, it was a real blessing..something that has changed her life. Okay, basta Sorella Bowman...when you want to serve the Lord, even if it means staying inside, you are doing what you are supposed to.
OH! So the subject line, yeah, what the heck? It's been snowing here in Genova!! In fact, ALL OF ITALY hasn't seen weather this cold in close to 30 years!! NUTS RIGHT?! So, the ankle has been a blessing because my companion gets woozy more often than not with the weather changes. But this time around, I have SO much patience and the sickness she has doesn't bother me...I surprise myself at how understanding I've become! can I actually say patient?? I think the Lord is now teaching me how to be patient with myself...and well...it's taking longer than everything else...but I'm working on it :)
Thank you all so much for the letters and pictures and pick-me-ups...You'll never know how much joy they bring to my life!! Keep standing up for what you believe in, and look for the hands that hang down....just so you can lift them up!!
love always,
sorella bowman
p.s. the ankle, yeah, I tweaked it on Wednesday and it's still swollen around the joints. I'm looking for a brace today to see what we can do...but, I'm making myself walk and going forward from there. Still bruised, still purple, but good enough to walk on :)
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