Wednesday, August 31, 2011 10:12am
Hello friends and family,
There is not much to report today...this week has been pretty calm. To answer your questions Mom, all I did to my hair was a trim and reshaped the layers. I do NOT plan on cutting it short for at least the next year...don't worry.:) Now for the fun stuff...When people tell you that a mission is the best thing you could ever do...they are right. Sure, I'm being a little selfish right now...but I am learning so much about myself through others and learning so much of what I am capable of. It's just so much better to look at life that way. You have to stop looking at what you lack, and really look at what you accomplish. I had to call the Mission Mom this week because I was just such a mess within my own thoughts...I needed a mom to talk to! I felt, that as a trainer, I just wasn't doing my job! We weren't talking to so many people, we were inside quite a bit, and things were just starting to get to me. In all honesty, I felt like maybe I wasn't doing my job because I am not really that stressed! Sure, there are pinches, but I am actually ENJOYING myself...and yet, working in a different way. We stay inside to make up time to study, because with the weather changing, Sorella Smith can't get up. She was flat out the other day...Monday morning...and she just couldn't move. So, instead of doing certain things that we would normally do...I felt that we needed to stay inside and prepare HER for the lesson tonight. She had become frustrated with me because I wouldn't let her teach....and yet, I got frustrated with her because I WOULD give her opportunities to teach...and she wouldn't take them. As she vented her feelings to me...I was, honestly, proud of myself for not saying anything. I actually felt a little like Dad when he gets his feelings hurt...the tight lip and everything...and I just said "I need a minute" and left the room to pray. We both calmed down, and no feelings were hurt...and the idea the next day to do Roleplays with her...came to me. And with that, we realized where we really were both lacking and it was a struggle, but it truly brought miracles. I am getting better at holding my tongue and not getting so frustrated!! It's WONDERFUL!! I really feel like I'm developing the patience that I have always desired. I mean, sure we stay in quite frequently, but I have felt, time and time again, that my companion is my work right now. She can't speak the language, and yet, when we went over the lesson for Monday night...the Spirit was SO STRONG because we had practiced and we were able to teach together. Before we had left for the lesson, I was almost TRYING to make myself feel guilty because we are moving at SUCH a different pace...but I couldn't. We prayed as a companionship yesterday, to see if ALL THE TIMES WE MISS CASA are really what the Lord wants...and, surprisingly, it is. The phrase (you can't run faster than you have strength) is totally true. I am SO TIRED at the end of everyday, but yet, it is more of a mental tiredness...and it's good growth. My companion is truly coming along so well...verb conjugations and everything...such leaps and bounds.
I am finding things in my life that...you just have to laugh about. I'm learning how to feed my body and really receiving revelation about this hypoglycemia. The Lord really did send Sister Smith to me because of her illnesses, she really knows a LOT. She just found out today about my issue and she just says "THat makes SO MUCH SENSE now!" Oops...just slipped my mind. So we are trying, together, to eat better and have less sugar...only one day a week. And by heaven, it is WORKING!! I don't feel AS TIRED and I find things that are better for me...and I just FEEL better. SO that is something I have always wanted help with, and I think I am finally getting it. She teases me for the <gerbil food> that I bought today...but I have to get my fiber in SOMEHOW!! We were at a member's home on Monday, teaching their neice about the church (the miracle lesson) and they HAD to feed us dinner. We tried to refuse, but they take no...as..well...not an answer. So, the sister comes out with this plate....like huge plate...half of white rice and half of BUTTERED mashed potatoes, and a teeny tiny piece of some type of meat...as well as this salad that...pretty much tasted like bile, and caneloni...that was burned. We ate it...and Sorella and I had a GREAT laugh about the salad...because we loaded our plates with the leafy greens...and really wished we hadn't. You really have to find creative ways now and then to shovel things down...truly. So...the eating comes difficult sometimes...especially when you work out everyday and your clothes begin to fit a little differently...Yeeeaaahhh...so we are cutting out sugar and really helping each other.
Everything is going well and time and time again the Lord blesses me. It is when I am working my hardest that the adversary brings back memories or even memories of my faults...and I just have to look at how far I've come and rejoice in the life the Savior has blessed me with. Sorella Wolfgramm says that I can't think I've failed...with the situation I am in, I have to think at how far I have come. She said that the Lord has blessed me with experiences with relationships to help me understand people and what they need....This was an inspired statement from her...because it really caught me speechless...truly off guard. But I just truly have a testimony of through trials, we really DO see the blessings...even if it comes much later. You heal, and you can either let yourself heal in a (wow, can't think of the english way to say it...give me a second...) You can heal in a more brittle manner-to allow yourself to be bitter and angry...or you can heal into a more softer, genuine person...And not to toot my own horn, but I just really feel that the Savior has healed me to see life in a more beautiful way and to truly see the glass half full because I can see WHAT happiness is. Life is so much more beautiful when happiness is your perspective. I know it may seem that I am speaking in code...but I am not...just speaking my thoughts as they come.
Until next week... Con tutto del mio cuore, Sorella Bowman
p.s. TANTI AGURI A TE! TANTI AGURI A TE! TANTI AGURI CARA MIA SORELLA CADHA!!!!!! TANTI AGURI A TE!!! Of course I didn't forget..have a wonderful birthday little sister...you're a teenager now (tomorrow)...holy smokes!!! Have some fun and eat a piece of cake for me...I'll be thinking of you!!!
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